I have the same fear. I’m trying to really live but it’s difficult when I work at least 20 hours a week, go to school, and run 2 businesses. Besides the business part, I don’t control my time. If you control your time, you control your life. Work and school is something where I just go through the motions and jump through the hoops. There are too many days that I feel are wasted. Too many days where I’m not really working towards anything and my wheels are just spinning under me.
I need more instances where I feel alive. More instances that get my adrenaline rushing that let me know that I’m alive. Playing it safe never really got anyone anywhere. Life should be measured by how many near-death incidents you’ve had; not by how many days of vacation your employer “allows” you.
That’s what we’ll be working towards starting in 2013. Hope you’ll join me.